Saturday, December 1, 2012

How can I express the truth?

He is not wood but split a piece and He is there,
He is not the earth but pick up a stone and you will find Him,
He is not a bird but its song is His holy voice,
He is not the sky but look up and you will see His shining face,
He is not a man but He became flesh and dwelt among us,
He has no name but we call him Father and Master and Lord.

How can I express the truth?

God is one. All is the One,One is the All. Yet God is more than the All.

Material reality is only an illusion.

Today's PPF Reading

See now this is why I love the Tarot,what a wonderful reading!


The river was ruff and full of rapids but I began to travel out of the fog of confusion and the water calmed,


On the horizon out over the calm water I see 8 bright stars but one is bigger than the rest and shining the brightest pointing the way home. Right now Hope and Joy are my allies!


There will come a time soon on my journey where I will have to look inward and discover which road the Lord will have me take as I journey onwards towards the distant crown!

Thursday, November 29, 2012

From the Inside out

I was taught to pray not listen, to read not feel,to accept not see.

Eventually I realized through studying the Gnostic Gospels that each of our spirits is of the same substance as the Divine so how could I learn to hear,feel,and see?

By following the advice of my lord Jesus Christ,

"...the Kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you.
When you come to know yourselves, then you will become known, and
you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living

-Gospel of Thomas,3

What I didn't know before is that God speaks from the inside out not from the outside in.

Though it may be obvious to you it wasn't to me. My understanding was stilted.

I looked everywhere else for God ,tried all kinds of practices, but I never found him because I didn't look inside. I was afraid too you see. I knew that inside me was great darkness.

A great and horrible darkness,the shadow.

But what I know now is that darkness is the illusion that encrusts the Divine Spark inside me and hides its light from my view.

Christ did not come into this world,he did not take on limited material form to save the righteous,

I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners."
-Matthew 9:13

There is NOTHING so dark that it can not be illuminated,there is no one beyond redemption and enlightenment. Not even me and certainly not you!

"Light and darkness, life and death, right and left are mutually dependent; it is impossible for them to separate. Accordingly the 'good' are not good, the 'bad' are not bad, 'life' is not life, 'death' is not death."

-Gospel of Philip

I am not bad and I am not good,I am both.

When I learned to see the good in me again not just the bad I could hear,feel,and see my Lord from within!

It came when I realized that I am just a fool on a journey. When I accepted that I could forgive myself and then the Light came!

Admit it and Change Everything

"Define and narrow me, you starve yourself of yourself.
Nail me down in a box of cold words, that box is your
I do not know who I am.
I am astounded lucid confusion.
I am not a Christian, I am not a Jew, I am not a Zoroastrian,
And I am not even a Muslim.
I do not belong to the land, or to any known or unknown
Nature cannot own or claim me, nor can heaven,
Nor can India, China, Bulgaria,
My birthplace is placelessness,
My sign to have and give no sign,
You say you see my mouth, ears, eyes, nose-they are not
I am the life of life.
I am that cat, this stone, no one.
I have thrown duality away like an old dishrag,
I see and know all times and worlds,
As one, one, always one.
So what do I have to do to get you to admit who is
Admit it and change everything!
This is your own voice echoing off the walls of God."


Monday, November 26, 2012


 The only horror awaiting you at death is rebirth should you not attain mystical Union in the here and now.

 Far from being an elitist religion this idea points to the universalism of Gnosticism. Taken to its logical conclusion it means all will be saved though some with less rebirths than others. This is in keeping with the belief that our Divine Spark is actually part of the Unknown Father and He can not be whole so long as we remain in the prison of material reality.

Now the Valentinian Gnostics taught that you must be resurrected in life if you are to be resurrected after death which is to say you have to reach Christ consciousness or Theosis as our eastern orthodox brothers call it.

"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."
-2 Corinthians 5:17

Jesus repeatedly talks about the two natures becoming one in the Gospel of Thomas. He further says quote,

"He who will drink from my mouth will become
like Me. I myself shall become he, and the things that are hidden
will become revealed to him."
(saying 108)

 My understanding of all this is far from perfect ,after all I am only a fool, so I do not believe I understand it fully but this concept has perhaps two stages,

1. Making the two natures of man,the Light and the darkness,one.

2. Experiencing the true reality which is that all multiplicity is an illusion. Coming to know that the universe of forms ,that is material reality, is an illusion and that all things are one. Forming a union with the Divine from which all things emanate and  are inseparably connected.

I believe this comes from knowing yourself and listening to your Divine Spark within. There are many methods one can use to do this. My chief methods at this point are study and meditation on the Gnostic Gospels,interpreting my dreams, and visualizations on a Kabbalistic interpretation of the Tarot along with readings.

It is my belief that those who attain Christ Consciousness in this life will break the cycle and upon material death ascend to the Pleroma,the heavenly realm of Light and Oneness!

I hope to one day KNOW it.