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Inner Gnosis Episode 4 - The Afterlife

In this episode of "Inner Gnosis" I talk about what I have come to believe regarding the Afterlife.

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"For me, to live in Christ and to die is gain!"

-Philippians 1:21

 (There is an unexpected volume issue with this episode that I will do my utmost to prevent in the future. If you turn up your volume its more than loud enough but I apologize for the inconvenience.)

Time?

"Jesus said, "Let him who seeks continue seeking until he finds. When he finds, he will be troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over the All."
-Gospel of Thomas,2

I'm fond of saying that there is no past or future just this moment but in fact as I said that that "moment" ceased to be. The truth is time does not exist at all.

Because we can not comprehend this imagining that it is forever present works better for illustration.

Imagine your entire life being played out all at once. Every action,every word,every thought,every reaction,birth and death.

Imagine that you are simultaneously at every location you have ever been to and will be at right now.

That is actual reality.

Now realize that its all maya,its all illusion. We are perfect thoughts in the mind of God and we are one in eternity not past or present or future.

Inner Gnosis Episode 2 - Jesus Christ and Perfect Thought

In this episode of "Inner Gnosis" I talk about Jesus Christ, the Way, and Infinity.

"Jesus said, "Let him who seeks continue seeking until he finds. When he finds, he will be troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over the All."
-Gospel of Thomas,2

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Inner Gnosis Episode 1 - Universal Mind

I'm not as happy with my performance in this episode as the last but its an interesting and important topic!
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The Universe is Illusionary

I maybe getting into psuedoscience here but its an interesting way to look at reality and backed up by all the great mystical traditions so humor me.

Everything we see all around us is energy.

Energy = Mass x the Speed of Light.

More than that everything all around us is connected.

When we die our consciousness does not end but goes on and hopefully becomes part of the One. Energy CAN NOT be destroyed,it can only change.

If we do not unite with the Oneness permanently we merely transforms into another life form back on the Wheel.

According to the Kybalion matter is only spirit or energy at a lower ALMOST stagnant vibration. As we attain higher levels of consciousness we vibrate at higher and higher frequencies. At the highest frequency,lets say the speed of light, we become pure energy,pure spirit.

All of reality as we see it is only illusion,the universe is but a hologram.

The realm of light,the Pleroma,the Divine Oneness,Heaven is all around us right now in this the eternal moment!

From the Inside out

I was taught to pray not listen, to read not feel,to accept not see.

Eventually I realized through studying the Gnostic Gospels that each of our spirits is of the same substance as the Divine so how could I learn to hear,feel,and see?

By following the advice of my lord Jesus Christ,

"...the Kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you.
When you come to know yourselves, then you will become known, and
you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living
Father..."

-Gospel of Thomas,3

What I didn't know before is that God speaks from the inside out not from the outside in.

Though it may be obvious to you it wasn't to me. My understanding was stilted.

I looked everywhere else for God ,tried all kinds of practices, but I never found him because I didn't look inside. I was afraid too you see. I knew that inside me was great darkness.

A great and horrible darkness,the shadow.

But what I know now is that darkness is the illusion that encrusts the Divine Spark inside me and hides its light from my view.

Christ did not come into this world,he did not take on limited material form to save the righteous,

"I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners."
-Matthew 9:13

There is NOTHING so dark that it can not be illuminated,there is no one beyond redemption and enlightenment. Not even me and certainly not you!

"Light and darkness, life and death, right and left are mutually dependent; it is impossible for them to separate. Accordingly the 'good' are not good, the 'bad' are not bad, 'life' is not life, 'death' is not death."

-Gospel of Philip

I am not bad and I am not good,I am both.

When I learned to see the good in me again not just the bad I could hear,feel,and see my Lord from within!

It came when I realized that I am just a fool on a journey. When I accepted that I could forgive myself and then the Light came!

Admit it and Change Everything

"Define and narrow me, you starve yourself of yourself.
Nail me down in a box of cold words, that box is your
 coffin.
I do not know who I am.
I am astounded lucid confusion.
I am not a Christian, I am not a Jew, I am not a Zoroastrian,
And I am not even a Muslim.
I do not belong to the land, or to any known or unknown
 sea.
Nature cannot own or claim me, nor can heaven,
Nor can India, China, Bulgaria,
My birthplace is placelessness,
My sign to have and give no sign,
You say you see my mouth, ears, eyes, nose-they are not
 mine.
I am the life of life.
I am that cat, this stone, no one.
I have thrown duality away like an old dishrag,
I see and know all times and worlds,
As one, one, always one.
So what do I have to do to get you to admit who is
 speaking?
Admit it and change everything!
This is your own voice echoing off the walls of God."

-Rumi

Wholeness

When I started out on my journey I believed that there were two natures,the darkness and the light and indeed in a symbolic way there are but I have come to know that it is only an illusion. Multiplicity is the demiurges illusion.
 The great evil I see in others is my ego projecting my own faults on to them.
To experience the true reality I must learn to transmutate my two natures into one,I must become whole.
 All things emanate from the Source,the One,the Monad,the Unknown Father of all and as Jesus said,

"When you make the two one, and when you
make the inside like the outside and the outside like the inside,
and the above like the below, and when you make the male and the
female one and the same, so that the male not be male nor the
female female; and when you fashion eyes in the place of an eye,
and a hand in place of a hand, and a foot in place of a foot, and
a likeness in place of a likeness; then will you enter [the
Kingdom]."
-Gospel of Thomas,22

As the great Valentinian writer elaborated:

"Light and darkness, life and death, right and left are mutually dependent; it is impossible for them to separate. Accordingly the 'good' are not good, the 'bad' are not bad, 'life' is not life, 'death' is not death."

-Gospel of Philip

Remember,

"Jesus said, "When you make the two one, you will become the
sons of man, and when you say, 'Mountain, move away,' it will
move away."

-Gospel of Thomas,106

 "Jesus said, "He who will drink from my mouth will become
like Me. I myself shall become he, and the things that are hidden
will become revealed to him."

-Gospel of Thomas,108

My Vision of the Light

Its been a few days so I shall try to retell it as best as I can but some of the glory may be lost.

There I was sat listening to music,it might have been "Within you without you," and as I sat I put my face down and let my mind go.

I was transported to the sky beyond the planets to a place that seemed to be only blanketed with far off stars and otherwise darkness.

 As I flew I began to change. How I can not say ,sometimes this vision was first person sometimes third, but at that moment I was seeing it all through my own eyes and I changed into a billion strands of blue white light like lightening or plasma.

Then it opened.

The blackness opened on both sides like it was a bubble of darkness being stabbed by an invisible finger of light.

It opened and on the other side of this door was white light. Pure white light.

I flew into it now out of this universe of forms into a light space beyond time and matter.

There seemed to be no floor or walls or roof in this place just pure bright whiteness yet I put my blue-white light strands on the solid air and transformed back into the semblance of the man I use to be.

There directly in front of me was a giant pillar of that same kind of manic electric light and I somehow knew that I was standing before the God of all sitting on his throne.

At that moment even though I seemed to be able to see through the light strands of the Unknown Fathers throne from behind the right hand side a man appeared and came towards me. His skin was as white as the snow as was his hair and he seemed naked.

Then I knew.

I knew it was Jesus himself and I saw him as he is depicted by man. With a beard and olive skin wearing a robe and sandals.

He opened his arms and I ran forward and hugged him. He returned the embrace and I cried.

Something to be Truly Thankful for

"Jesus said, "He who will drink from my mouth will become
like Me. I myself shall become he, and the things that are hidden
will become revealed to him."

"His disciples said to Him, "When will the Kingdom come?"
<Jesus said,> "It will not come by waiting for it. It will
not be a matter of saying 'Here it is' or 'There it is.' Rather,
the Kingdom of the Father is spread out upon the earth, and me

do not see it."

-Gospel of Thomas 108,113

I believe my lord Jesus Christ is talking about a higher state of consciousness. That is he is talking about union with our higher self which is fully Divine.

You see each of our spirits is a pure spark of Divine consciousness and of the same essence as the God of All.

God wants us to unite with him as much as we want to unite with him.

As the great sufi mystic Rumi said,

"What you seek is seeking you!"

The Divine oneness will never be whole until every last human is liberated from the cycle of death and rebirth and unites with God!

To tie this into thanksgiving a bit understand that your highest self is divine and of immeasurable value. You matter,you are important, no matter how blessed or cursed your life in the material universe seems to be every part of you is of the gods.

Rejoice and give thanks!

Happy Thanksgiving!

A Short Gnostic Prayer of Thanksgiving

"Dearest Father, most gracious Mother Barbelo,thank you for these wonderful gifts which you have given, and grant us the mindfulness to appreciate them and return them to others.

(Sign of the Cross) Nous,Christos,Pistis Sophia,Amen."


Taken from Jeremy Puma's, "A Gnostic Prayerbook: Rites, Rituals, Prayers and Devotions for the Solitary Modern Gnostic."

Jesus Christ's Religion is Big Enoguh for All of Us

The absolute legitimacy of the new testament canon is highly questionable from a historical perspective. There were MANY ideas about exactly who Jesus was and what he claimed at the very beginning of the religion in the 1st century.

To deny that is to deny reality.

Believe what you like but don't assume you know the whole truth. I certainly don't.

Only a blind fool has absolute certainty regarding such things because to much time has passed with far to many distortions for the historic Jesus Christ to be knowable.

The truth is the Orthodox Jesus is based as much on myth as the Gnostic Jesus.

Accept that and move on.

Realize though that that is no basis for loosing ones faith but it is a good justification for being open minded and allowing for a big tent Christianity that accepts seemingly unusual doctrines as legitimate expressions of our noble tradition.

Jesus Christ's religion is big enough for all of us!

The Mystic Way

We are Strangers

Each of our spirits is a pure spark of Divine consciousness and of the same essence as the God of All.

We are not merely animals or minds.

We are strangers in a strange land.

God can not be whole while we remain trapped in the illusion of material reality so He calls to us. He calls always in our dreams and imaginings. He calls and we only need learn how to listen to hear His Holy Voice.

Do not be discouraged by past or even present misdeeds. According to the secret revelation of St.John the God of All,the Monad,the One,the Unknown Father,the Pleroma,the Light freely gives mercy and love. He is not these things but he freely gives them.

As we are engulfed in the darkness of ignorance the Light does not judge. He is forever calling us home like the father who when he saw his son coming from afar prepared a great feast and welcomed his return with open arms even though the son had stolen from him.

Our God is not a god of second chances. Hes a God of infinite chances until we get it right!

Today's Card: Eight of Cups

Today's card is the Eight of Cups. I need to walk away from old things,I need to move on and grow. Based on the other cards in my reading I know this has to do with my fear of relationships. I need to recognize that I have deep affection,I need to walk away from my fear,and I need to go for it as a happy fool believing that life is good and worthy of trust.

Gods Who Should Worship Men

I wish good kind christian people like my father would cast off their belief in a god who demands blood atonement.

Justice maybe warranted but its not love or mercy. An eye for an eye maybe justice but Jesus Christ said if your enemy strikes you on the cheek turn to him the other and pray for him. Love your enemies.

Jehovah didn't love his enemies but its not as if he was evil in his wrath rather he was coarse. He had no capacity for forgiveness without blood atonement either through the punishment and death of the person or of an animal surrogate.

To me this says either God has a monumental case of schizophrenia or jehovah is NOT Jesus Christs father but hey what do I know?

I realize that I am a fool I only wish my orthodox counterparts would realize the same.

In my opinion though ,and it is only my fool-like opinion, only a god completely beyond rational comprehension without a name,without description can truly be a God worthy of worship.

"Men make gods and worship their creation. It would be fitting for (such) gods to worship men!"

-Gospel of Phillip

Fear of Enlightenment

My only disagreement is one of language. We are part of the One,not the whole. Though for a number of reasons I am more attracted to the western mysteries there is much Gnosis in the east.

The Unity of Opposites

"The One is the all."

I use to think I had a fractured personality but I know now that the illness is in thinking that the shadow and the light are separate.

There can be no light without darkness.

They must merge,there must be an alchemical transmutation.

We are flux and we are constant. We do good and bad and we are both. We regress and progress and are always doing both.

We are a unity of opposites or else we are completely broken.

"Light and darkness, life and death, right and left are mutually dependent; it is impossible for them to separate. Accordingly the 'good' are not good, the 'bad' are not bad, 'life' is not life, 'death' is not death."

-Gospel of Philip

"What am I telling you?
All at once the living die.
How do they live in illusion?
The rich become poor,
kings are overthrown,
everything changes.
The world is illusion."

-The Treatise on Resurrection

The illusion (or in my case delusion) of multiplicity shall completely vanish once I come to KNOW the true reality.

The very moment the black head of the snake eats his white tail individuation and eternity has come.

We are all part of the One,All things emanate from the One but I only believe that now. I will KNOW it one day through experience with the help of Christos and Sophia.

We All Need Some Light

"...We all need some light now
We all need some light now
Yes, we all need some light now
Turn on your light and wash the darkness away!"